Sequel to the previous post
As you know already, i have ADHD, which is in a nutshell, every human emotion on overkill.
It's not magic, but it's something not every human got.
Every emotion is exaggerated, and senses too.
Imagine how it works..
Boredom and laziness is twice frequent and harder
Anger and hate
Anxiety and sadness
Happiness and pleasure
Love and nostalgia (love & tolerance, yeah if you get the reference, then i guess you know how it's connected and the lore)
Motivation and ... what is the second word?
Another symptom is randomly forgetting commonly used words
Outside of the box thinking: Motivation and ... there's a common word forgotten
Impulsivity - basically some trigger words can raise certain emotions
Fear of reject
Fear of meeting new people / social issues
Normal people also experience this, but with ADHD it's all doubled.
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Now where am i right now?
I'm at home, downloading music production software.
this is my desktop
ADHD people have personalities, however I am not a lazy degenerate and team Hailfire know it already.
Some people been complaining that it's impossible to collaborate with me, If you want to collaborate, use trigger words or relate the collaboration to things i'm interested in. ADHD can give a strong urge to do something that makes me happy.
Now the text above seems selfish, and I've been suspecting it for quiet a while and yes, ADHD people can't be arrogant.
feel of self-esteem, insecurity / confidence is being exaggerated and prone to mood swings just as any other sense.
Which means i can be confident temporarily, have a medium or high self-esteem temporarily, but not sure about high self-esteem however, i often don't value my life.
Now the last question, what is my little pony stuff about?
I love 2010s. MLP and Dubstep was spread around the same time through the same vessel (internet) and there's a dubstep character DJ-Pon3.
The characters resemble real life personalities and mental illnesses, for example, Rainbow Dash has ADHD, Twilight Sparkle has Social Awkwardness.
I love this show and i met a lot of brony musicians, xRain is one of them. It can be watched at any age unlike other TV shows
So yes, next time you accuse me of being weird for enjoying a cartoon - then yeah, it's the same as i can accuse you for watching Spongebob or Hasbin Hotel (i'm talking about you, Kemical)
I am back at music production, and this time i'll be more confident.
But i won't sacrifice the epic trance breakdowns and 2010 references because that's my personality.
~NKRN~ 2025